A different path
On this day dedicated to couples and love
I’m assigned to my fate like a hand to a glove
It seems I am destined to spend it alone
Questioning why my heart has turned to stone
I desire to love, I desire to marry
But it seems that the prospect has proven too scary
This isn’t because of lack of opportunity
I’ve treated love like a criminal with impunity
Carelessly swinging a dull jagged sword
Only realizing now, the answer’s the Lord
I’ve spent the last year with someone truly great.
A girl who has turned me back to the God I forsake.
She knows me better than any other
We’ve talked and shared like best friends or brothers.
She’s been strong during my roller coaster of emotion
The whole time only seeking my deepest devotion
I just couldn’t give it, it proved too hard
My love was hidden and always on guard
Yet she persisted because she thought I had worth
Caring for me like the woman who gave me birth
But such undeserved love I couldn’t permit.
In the end it turns out I just couldn’t commit
The Lord has told me to take another path
At first it didn’t compute, I couldn’t do the math.
I just want her to be happy; I want to be happy too
Especially because of all the things that we’ve been through
I can only hope that we always remain friends
And that the future will offer a much clearer lens
Providing a way for us both to see
God’s eternal plan for our eternities